I've been having those moments again. Those "What's the point in blogging?" moments. Those "Blogging = Egocentrism" moments. I'm selfish. It's possible I'm the most selfish person I know. The previous sentence is, in and of itself, a selfish statement. The more I think about it the more I realize that in order to be a good blogger one must be selfish. That's not always the case but it's true in some. And I think that I blog best when I blog about myself. I try to be "with it" by posting links to things I think are "hip" but am trying to learn that simply posting about me is probably the best thing I can do.
Lack of sleep is causing me to be a very angry, unpleasant person these days and it (lack of sleep) puts me in a difficult situation. In order to be a better husband/father/friend/person I should be taking better care of myself and that requires adequate sleep. Sleeping requires time that could be spent with Lori/kids/friends/people and demands that I put myself first over them. See how this ties in with the selfish bit? It's frustrating.
The better of the two choices is for me to get proper rest. I'm finally becoming more aware of my actions when I haven't gotten enough sleep. Small things piss me off. Things that are so insignificant. I like to think that I have an eye for detail but it comes across as being negative, seeing the worst in that which isn't really all that bad at all. I hate that about me.
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This morning I made pancakes from scratch. I'm talking about not from a mix. You know? Like flour, eggs, milk, and all that stuff. I got syrup on my shirt and in my beard. The longer I go without shaving (has been about 7 months) the more difficult it is to eat without getting food on my face or in my beard.
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I bought a black suit today. The guy had me try on a Calvin Klein jacket. The price tag said $375, just for the jacket. I bought something else which included pants. Along with a white shirt, the alteration fees and tax I still spent less than $375.
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Through Site Meter I discovered that someone I don't know...yet...(jenthemom.com) has added me to her links. I have no idea how long she has been reading nor when I was added to her links. Jen, are you there? Can you bring this into light?
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I'm reading The Hobbit. I've never read it before. I made it part way through the first LOTR book and wanted to get back into the story. I can't find my LOTR books but found The Hobbit. It just makes sense to start with this book and then slide into the others later.
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Rented 3 movies today. Got that Shark Boy & Lava Girl one for the kids. It's crap but the kids like it. Watched it twice this evening. I lost count of the terrible puns at around 18. At Lori's request I picked up The 40 Year Old Virgin and I managed to find 3-iron which I blogged about back in May.
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And now here I sit Googling "quantum physics", "the elegant universe", "what the bleep do we know?" and "string theory" instead of watching our movies because Lori is already in bed.
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Lack of sleep is causing me to be a very angry, unpleasant person these days and it (lack of sleep) puts me in a difficult situation. In order to be a better husband/father/friend/person I should be taking better care of myself and that requires adequate sleep. Sleeping requires time that could be spent with Lori/kids/friends/people and demands that I put myself first over them. See how this ties in with the selfish bit? It's frustrating.
The better of the two choices is for me to get proper rest. I'm finally becoming more aware of my actions when I haven't gotten enough sleep. Small things piss me off. Things that are so insignificant. I like to think that I have an eye for detail but it comes across as being negative, seeing the worst in that which isn't really all that bad at all. I hate that about me.
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This morning I made pancakes from scratch. I'm talking about not from a mix. You know? Like flour, eggs, milk, and all that stuff. I got syrup on my shirt and in my beard. The longer I go without shaving (has been about 7 months) the more difficult it is to eat without getting food on my face or in my beard.
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I bought a black suit today. The guy had me try on a Calvin Klein jacket. The price tag said $375, just for the jacket. I bought something else which included pants. Along with a white shirt, the alteration fees and tax I still spent less than $375.
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Through Site Meter I discovered that someone I don't know...yet...(jenthemom.com) has added me to her links. I have no idea how long she has been reading nor when I was added to her links. Jen, are you there? Can you bring this into light?
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I'm reading The Hobbit. I've never read it before. I made it part way through the first LOTR book and wanted to get back into the story. I can't find my LOTR books but found The Hobbit. It just makes sense to start with this book and then slide into the others later.
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Rented 3 movies today. Got that Shark Boy & Lava Girl one for the kids. It's crap but the kids like it. Watched it twice this evening. I lost count of the terrible puns at around 18. At Lori's request I picked up The 40 Year Old Virgin and I managed to find 3-iron which I blogged about back in May.
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And now here I sit Googling "quantum physics", "the elegant universe", "what the bleep do we know?" and "string theory" instead of watching our movies because Lori is already in bed.
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If I were to make a New Year's Resolution it would be to stop trying so hard to impress others. To learn who I truly am and just be myself, whomever that is. To stop pointing out the fault in others and to correct the wrong within my own life. I could stand to lose 5 or 10 pounds. I want to play my guitar more, to pick it up everyday (not just once or twice a month). Oh yeah, I could get more sleep.
